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P.S. - I wrote this quite a while ago. I don't really feel the same way now. Not with as much anguish, anyway.

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Apr 6, 2022Liked by Cintra Wilson

Your next TED Talk: Personal style is as precious as freedom of speech. If you aren’t consciously using fashion to empower yourself, fashion is mostly likely using you to empower a brand.

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Mar 23, 2022Liked by Cintra Wilson

The only antidote to the awful feeling in the last 60-odd words is Divine at the beginning of Hairspray, sweating over an ironing board.

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Whether we are hardwired to do this shit to each other and to ourselves and/or we’re being “skull-fucked” (your use was electrifying) by the Man, I LOVE THIS! It’s a fantastic analysis of the dishwater our hands have been soaking in! Your impertinent friend sounds annoying and valuable. Do you like Devo’s Freedom of Choice? When we drive cross country and see housing tracts in the middle of nowhere, I’m always like, These people could go live in Paris but they don’t know it. I once had the chance to buy a fake Cartier watch and it DID spark an existential crisis! I was confused about why I wasn’t content to have a convincing fake and now I understand why. If you stood speechifying on an apple crate in the park, you’d be famous within a week. I’m declaring you a national treasure.

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Mar 23, 2022·edited Mar 23, 2022Liked by Cintra Wilson

That paragraph where the guy tells you what you really want, is the most obscene gay fantasy ever, so perhaps there's hope to turn your anger into something positive. And yeah, I need an editor.

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Apr 20, 2022Liked by Cintra Wilson

You've always had teeth. Love your bite. Your honey badger mind, with its fearless probing snout and thirst for dangerous excavation. You extract brain grub from the crookedest nooks and most corrupt crannies. Though deft literary sleight of hand...you train killer bees to fly in a halo above your head...thereby channeling the venom into a buzzy, eye-catching crown. You be like a reverse ninja who seeks not to blend into the shadows and penetrate the edifice but strut straight up in colors insulting to nature, strategically place explosives, and walk away smirking in slow-mo, backdropped by a wall of fire like an 80's Hollywood action hero. U r glamour as (Thor's) hammer.

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Mar 28, 2022Liked by Cintra Wilson

In that through-the-looking-glass, projective way, premeditated, social "self-expression," at any point on the socio-economic spectrum, is often compensation for a sensed nullity at the core. This can be to some degree countered by utilitarian dress and accessorizing, which is not to say drabness, but rather a stylish (it is completely rational to put your best food forward at all times) subtlety, eschewal of trademarks and refusal to signal by paying for pure wealth-markers. A Timex is as accurate as a Rolex, and in some cases much purer in design. If you are looked down upon for wearing the former, it's time to change your circle.

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Mar 23, 2022Liked by Cintra Wilson

I also hear a TV ad for New Panopticon in the TV background

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Mar 23, 2022Liked by Cintra Wilson

Are the origins of this status branding you speak of a vertebrate behavior? Mammal behavior? Group status / pecking order runs thru a lot of phyla. USA corporate advertising is a minor species-specific expression of a set of hardwired ideas that evolved 300 MYA (million years ago) about social rank/sexual access-fitness. Now that we scrub ourselves of what would be our identifying molecules each morning with that Procter & Gamble soap, we need Rolexes and Vuitton bags to deliver interpersonal status/fitness messages. The human neocortex, a late arrival in the bran pan, supplies the cognition to think the problem may be cannibal capitalist imperialist brainwashers at work when this self-policing is hardwired from birth. That said - 1950s women were always one small step away from being stashed in mental hospitals for any sideways behavior (see: gays-lesbians in '50s). Housewives were butchered by malevolent-ignorant doctors making house-car-college tuition payments with their hysterectomy / tonsilectomy protocols then passing out amphetamines by the handful ("take 10 of these each day dear or more if you get depressed [after I gutted your baby-making parts]) and when you get jumpy - its off to the funny farm. Turns out (research from past 5 years) that tonsils are key immune system organs that perform all manner of immune cell proliferation-differentiation-signaling right there at the back of your throat where most of the bugs that will make you sick land.....f'ing idiots (1950s doctors)........(too many 60s-2022 doctors). The thing to worry about more than corporate manifestations of status markers is brain parasites........hint: The "blood-brain-barrier" is a myth.

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